Once again I have recommitted myself to blogging. And it's not because I have a fan of loyal followers that are checking everyday anxiously awaiting a new post. I know hard to believe right? Ever since I have had children my life has passed by at a lightening fast speed.. My children are getting older everyday. My oldest is getting baptized this year (how did that happen?)
I blog because I don't ever want to forget all of the moments that are my life right now. the happy, the sad, the ugly, the dirty, the stressed, the joy, the laughter, the tears, and the spills. All of it. I want to soak it in, write it down and never forget it.
I don't want to forget that right now my 7 year old Maddie is my shadow. When we are at home I can always be sure she is always just 5 steps behind me watching, listening and soaking in everything that I do. I don't want to forget because she may not enjoy being so close to me a few years down the road. I don't want to forget that she loves school and that she is a role model for the other students.(that was said by her 1st grade teacher.
I don't want to forget that my 5 year old Ava loves to sit on my lap. If ever I am sitting down she climbs right up and wants to be snuggled. I don't want to forget that she is becoming such a good reader and loves to read the scriptures. I don't want to forget how easily she makes friends and how contagious her smile is.
I don't want to forget that my 4 year old Nora wants to be sure she is noticed amongst her siblings and when she needs my attention and I am not giving it to her. She will grab my face and turn it toward her and hold it there until I listen to everything she has to say. I don't want to forget how Nora tells me many times each day that she loves me. She often says Mom, and when I say what she simply says I love you. I don't want to forget her sweet voice and her prayers that very often pray for me. I know I have been blessed by her sweet prayers of concern.
I don't want to forget that my 2 year old Jack is nothing like his sisters were as babies. He loves trucks, and trains, and lawn mowers. And he has a "deep" voice he uses when he is talking about those things. I don't want to forget that he adores his sisters and looks up to them, so much that he has his toenails painted hot pink right now. I don't want to forget that he has so much fun with his big sister Nora and the first thing he does is look for her when he wakes up. And if she is still sleeping he goes and wakes her up.
I don't want to forget that I have learned patience, like I never thought I could. I don't want to forget that I have experienced Joy like I never thought I could. I don't want to forget that I have experienced heartache that I never thought I would.
Yes it's true my memory is lacking and I just don't want to forget.